suffering from some mental health issues..
hard to write anything during this difficult time.
feeling inadequate anyway.
will be back as soon as i can be.
</3 vopes.

i'm slowly in the process of getting rid of the stuff on da...i need to stop wasting my time on the computer.

i'm gonna be uploading a lot of stuff because when i sulk, i draw or write. my work is all crap, i'm very aware.. but oh well.. i'm just yea....


i really want to move away right now.... no offense to ANYONE. but.. i'm so sick and tired of stouffville... once i am finished with school... I'M MOVING AT LEAST 4 HOURS AWAY..... i would go to my dad's house but that would be too much of a burden for him to handle..
sigh.. my opinion of myself continues to decrease daily. i don't feel like i'm good enough for anybody... in all honesty i'm finding it really hard to talk to anybody because i am just soo worried about making them upset. SIGH thank you so much if you read through all of that... bet nobody does....
-.-


yeah.. future warning.. don't try to cheer me up.. it doesn't work.. just makes it worse... it's confusing.. i know.. i wish i could understand myself -.-

yea, i keep thinking "oh, this is as bad as it can get... it can only get better!" but i'm wrong... things recently just keep getting worse for me. i'm just feeling sick and i have so much work and my friends are all really sad, and i just get so depressed because i can't do anything about it. sigh. things should get better soon....shouldn't they?

well.. i have been writing more, due to my spare that i have just acquired and due to my recent finding of ...pain.. but it's REALLY basic pain that i can't even understand. I feel down ALL THE TIME. I can't explain it and neither can the people who know me better then I do. They are all acting down as well. Anyways, the point of this is that I'll be doing more. It's still crap, but it's my crap -.-